I fear to be vulnerable
I fear to make myself visible
What if I am not like them
What if I am not one of them?
What if their thoughts aren’t the same?
What if I am playing a lonely game?
This is how I build up a wall
On all four sides forming a hall
A hall as big as a mansion
A hall with only me and my depression
Many people come at the door
But all I do is just ignore
My heart is a huge sea of feelings
Finding a shore of definite endings
But now there’s a storm in this sea
Waves crashing in hope of being free
One decision and they can be released
But for me this sea is already deceased
It’s not that I can’t show my whole
Its not that I don’t want to grow
I want to, I want to, I want to
Can I please take a moment or two?
By the time I am ready and convinced
To put up a show of my life, unhinged
The beings there vanish like the rainbow
Two moments to glare, the sky is yellow
One day I will share my stories
One day I will live those glories
But until then let me write
And keep myself out of sightÂ
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