"I loved for almost 4 years, then last year we broke up. I was the one who was deeply hurt because his reason was that he suddenly fell out of love with me and realized that we couldn't continue. I was new abroad at that time, and the feeling was so intense that I would cry almost every day and night. I developed anxiety, depression, stress, and I would always overthink. It was hard to accept because I loved him so much and I was caught off guard; I wasn't ready. I just forced myself to be okay with my work here abroad because I would get even more depressed if my employer scolded me. It was so difficult, especially when I started working in the morning, my tears would suddenly fall, and I would stop working for a moment just to cry. Even now, in 2025, I still haven't moved on from him, and I still hope that everything will be okay because we still exchange messages, but it's different now. There are no more good mornings, good nights, I miss you, and I love you. He has no more feelings for me, but my love for him hasn't changed even though it's been almost a year since we broke up. I'm the only one who's sweet to him now. If he doesn't message me, even just to check on me, I miss him so much. I admit that it's my fault that I haven't moved on yet. I reached a point where he became my greatest love, and I fell so deeply in love with him. Even though I send him many messages and he doesn't even see them, it hurts so much that I just cry. But for me, I will still love him even if I look like a fool because as long as I can still use my phone, I will still message him even if there's no reply. Because the time will come when I get old, and maybe I'll lose my memories, I won't know how to use the phone anymore, and I won't be able to message my greatest love. So while I still can, I will always make him feel how much I love him. I cried while writing this because it hurts so much to be ignored by the person you love. Others can't relate to me; it's so easy for them to say 'move on, you'll find someone even better,' but that's the hardest thing to do – to move on because you don't want to lose the person you love even if they don't love you anymore. That's why I would rather be hurt and cry every day and night; at least I loved truly, and he is my greatest love."
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