So, yesterday I was just sitting in my staring at my ceiling, and then a msg popped up in my phone, it was a advertisement msg from zomato, so I was about to ignore when its tagline caught my eyes,
"Are you happy.?"
Ahh okay, keeping my phone aside i continued staring my ceiling again, now somewhere my mind is just revolving around that one line, "Are you happy.?"
I asked myself, "Am i, or not.?" If I am then why and if not then why not, a tide of numerous thoughts started in my mind.
Upon doing a little bit more self introspection, after asking myself, if your younger version meets you and see you in this position, in this condition, would he be happy? Ahh I got my answer.!!
Now, the next question is "why so .?"
Well, numerous possibilities stirred up in my mind but one of them was just shining more than others, i asked her, why are you having so much weightage and who'rr you .?
The answer that i got was a kinda shocking, i always used to think, maybe its bcz of comparison with others, or because of expectations of parents/friends.
But the answer that i got was totally different, " it is the expectation of my younger version, confidence of my younger version, that whenever I would be in that age i would do something different from others, and would never be depressed over minor stuffs "
So, yaa... somewhere deep down there was a thing known as self confidence who was hiding in shadows and said to me, you left here years ago, and now you're walking alone maybe that's why you are feeling that loneliness inside.
Now the important question, did I ask him to walk alongside with me ?
Yes, I did..
But, did he agree,
Well completely, he said he needs tym to recover from the betrayal of leaving him alone in those shadows and now he asked me to walk alone for some time and later he would join me...
Maybe, its tym to walk, to cover some distance first then hope so, he would join me side by side...
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