"My life before was different from now. Before, my life was so easy, no stress, no worries. I could do everything I wanted. I could sleep without any thoughts in my head and without an alarm to wake me up. I could sleep for more than 8 hours, and my work had no pressure. After work, I would bond with my friends. I was the one in control of my time because I was the only one among my siblings who wasn't married yet, and I was the youngest. But even then, I still thought about how I could help them or at least fulfill my parents' wish to have our house repaired. And my siblings would always scold me because they said I was always just with my friends. I had a job, but it wasn't enough to fix our house because my siblings already had their own homes, and I was the only one left living in our old house since our parents were gone. One of my siblings even said that I had finished my studies but had nothing to show for it, no direction in life, just easy-going. And that's when I started thinking because I was hurt. At that time, I prayed to God, 'Please do something with me so that they might appreciate me or I might achieve something in my life.'
So, I resigned from my previous job and suddenly got my passport. I don't know, it just came to me. Without knowing it, God was slowly answering my prayer. I left our place, even though it hurt because I would miss them all, even though they always told me off, but it was for my own good. I applied for work abroad, and my first time abroad was not something I knew would be easy in this new journey I had chosen, but I prayed everything to God.
And in the blink of an eye, my life suddenly changed. I experienced anxiety, depression, and stress. I sleep with an alarm now, and I only get 4 to 5 hours of sleep. Most of all, I'm not in control of my time. But I don't have regrets because this is what God gave me, and I asked for it and prayed for it, no matter how hard it was. But God is always there for me, to remind me always, to change me in every way. Maybe if God wasn't in my life, I might have committed suicide, but God is there for me, and my siblings always prayed for me. Even though it was difficult here in the Middle East, I'm proud that I fulfilled my parents' dream, even though they're gone, I got our house repaired, and my siblings became proud of me too. Even though it's so difficult here, God is still there for me. That's why I really thank God that He saved me, that God is in my heart, that's why I endured everything because God is on my side."
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