For the past week, I couldn’t write because I was busy packing my rented apartment that I was living in. After I left my home, I lived in that place for almost 9 months.
It may be a short period of time but I had grown very attached to that place.
In one of my previous stories, I shared how I can connect more to inanimate objects compared to people since they don’t hurt you frequently.
That is the reason why leaving home was hard for me since that place has a big part in who I am today.
Anyway
These short 9 months were nothing less than a roller coaster ride. When I first moved there I never thought I would feel this way when I left.
Every room, everyday door, everyday window and every object in that place has a story to tell about me. Maybe those stories aren’t interesting but they are very dear to me.
That apartment is where I decided that it was time and I needed to achieve financial freedom.
I started my writing journey there.
In that place, I realized I couldn’t marry the girl I love. Moreover, I can’t control a person no matter how much I try.
So I also learned to LET GO!
Playing Genshin Impact from 12 am to 2 am.
After that working out till 3 am.
Stormy winds make the windows curtain flow and touch my back almost as if someone is calling me.
In afternoons watching the sun’s last rays fall onto the marvel floor from the west window before it’s gone for the day.
Watching the moon alone in the dark sky tells me that I have chosen the path of individuality, and I now have to walk on it.
As I said so many……
Well, that is the moral of this story!
Whenever I had to leave I felt like I was leaving a part of me behind. And as you know leaving a part of yourself means it’s going to hurt a lot.
And it did!
But the last day at night I was walking through the empty rooms over and over. Feeling like this is the last time I am going to see them. Then I finally sat on the floor in the middle of the room and grasped something. That something was
Maybe I can’t be there forever, but that place can forever be inside of me as……
You can take that place away from me, you can take all the things, but you can never take the memories that I have made in there.
It wasn’t enough to soothe the pain. But it gave me the power to pick up myself and walk towards the future with hope.
Thank you for staying until the end!
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