"I know you don't worry about me anymore, and I'm no longer important to you. It hurts to think that I'm always waiting for your messages, waiting for you to call. You used to reply to me so quickly, we'd talk on the phone day and night. There were good mornings, good nights... I miss all of that from you. I miss your 'I miss you's,' your 'I love you's,' and when you called me 'my wife.' I haven't heard any of that from you since you told me you didn't love me anymore. I can't help but miss it all. I know you don't understand, because moving on is painful. It's easy to say, but I'm the one feeling how incredibly difficult it is.
No matter how busy I am here, you never leave my mind. I always wonder how you're doing, what you're up to, if you've eaten... things like that. And I still feel jealous, wondering who you're calling or chatting with, even though I shouldn't, even though I have no right to feel that way anymore because you've told me so many times that you don't love me. So, in the end, I'm just hurting myself. That's why I can't help but cry, overthink, and not sleep at night. I don't know how long I'll be like this, because honestly, I'm exhausted.
* #missyou
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