It's not working
I'm not enough
My head is too heavy
And I'm just numb
The anxiety creeps in daily
Like a monster who drains all my energy
I thought maybe sleep would help me
But you know, that monster now took the form of sleep paralysis
Funny ain't it?
What I label as monsters are nothing but the voices inside my head
" You don't deserve this life"
" You don't deserve these people"
I'm a filthy human
Who lives too ungrateful
My guilt took the form of monsters
I scream for help
" Can someone please come and save me?"
But then I realise it again and again
I am just a burden, just a filthy human
I never deserved good people
I blame myself for putting my negative influence on the happy people
I just wanna disappear
I just wanna die
But my parents won't be happy after that
So I continue anyways, with this cruel and ruthless life
And put up a facade of happiness and pride
I write my story in these pages
And pass my time
Life is just a dream,
The day I'll wake up.. I'll be just fine
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