I had a weired habit of wishing my school crush on her b'day every year and after meeting her for the first time in 2014 I wished her every year till 2022 without any shame, without any second thought. All she did was respond with:-
- Thank you
- Thanks a lot
- I'm good
- Yeah
- Ohh
- Ok
- No
- Yes
- Nice
- S2U
- Bye
- U too
And every year I tried to confess my feelings which I always had for her but I never had the courage to do that. So in 2022 on her 20th b'day I emailed her the picture I uploaded above.
And she replied with
- Thanks a lot
I had her number, I used to wish her on WhatsApp every year but on that day my cringe mind thought of doing something cringe and I emailed her but she never asked to complete that story so I left it.
And it took a lot of time to realize what the sh*t I was doing all those years as she never messaged me, she never wished me on my b'day, she didn't know anything about me after our 12th class.
She became a very good friend of mine by the end of class 8th but as time passed, we took different subjects in +1 and we used to see each other only during the English period so that changed a lot but she remained my crush till the end of class 12th and I didn't date anyone because of that hope ☠️ and I humbly rejected 3 girls who approached me in class 11th and 12th coaching classes.
Now when I look back, I realize how cringeworthy it was to do those things for someone who didn't give a damn about me. Anyways, I stopped doing those things and I am changing myself each day and I'm trying to improve myself in all the things possible. Now I only care for those who care for me, I only message those who message me and the other's are close to de*d for me. I don't cry, I don't feel sad, I don't feel stressed and I don't give a sh*t about, what other's think of me.
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