Yesterday I was cleaning my room and I found a note stuck in between my 10 year old Oxford dictionary & the note was the one I uploaded above.
- I passed my Class 10th in 2017 ✅
- I passed my Class 12th in 2019 ✅
- Straight after 12th I took admission in a local college as I just wanted a Bachelor's degree from any recognized university. ✅
- I wanted to go to Delhi for the IAS preparation but I ended up going to Pune as my brother got a job there ❌
- I started my UPSC coaching there and in two months I started rocking as I started getting good marks in the weekly tests of the coaching but just after 15 days, the first case of Corona was found in India and Maharashtra was on red alert & in a couple of months I had to leave Pune as we started getting rumours of total lockdown and within a few days there was Corona Lockdown.❌
It took lives of millions and many lost thier dreams. I will not give any excuse but I too lost a lot of things during that lockdown, at that time I couldn't focus on my studies as my mind was totally distracted by the things going around me & in the society and I started wasting my time in playing PUBG, watching Web Series, Movies, Youtube videos, and a lot of other things and I wasted all my time doing absolutely nothing.
I wasted 2 years doing nothing & I completed 2 years of college without giving any exam. Everyone In my family was worried for my future except me & I started looking for online jobs, I started posting PUBG videos on YouTube, I started applying for jobs online but after wasting 2–3 months I couldn't get anything & at that time I badly wanna commit suicide as I couldn't see any future for me but my brother who was working from home, stood up for me & said
I'll be there with you & I'll support you no matter what you do in future
Finally in 2021 I got a government job at Department of Posts & I totally forgot all those bad days but I also forgot my dream career. I started earning money, I became independent.
Now in 2025 I am doing that same old job, I did get some other sources of income but I still remember those days when I wanted to be an IAS officer but my mindset took me into a wrong direction.
I may have left the IAS dream but I did get some other goals for my future and I'll make sure I do get them as soon as possible & I'll do anything to achieve them & I'll not quit this time 🙌.
I did make another note of my future plans but I don't keep that in my dictionary anymore instead I keep it as a wallpaper of my phone, of my PC so that I keep reminding myself, that there are goals I need to achieve, so that I get a good life 🙆 & I'll not let anyone ruin those goals 🙌
Yes life is unfair and it's unpredictable
Pic credits :My phone gallery
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